I’ve been wanting to reflect of the past 2 years and 2 months I spent not working, but it never felt urgent or important (to anyone else) so I kept postponing it. But today is merely the third day I’m officially back employed and I still have 3.25 hours before a meeting, so I decide…
Category: Personal
I’m having a little celebration moment right now for my information detective skill. Allow me to share it with you. Earlier this week I saw a story of one of my IG acquaintances. it was a picture of a page shown on Kindle (see the passage at the end of this post). it looked interesting…
“It just feels like 90% of my life is spent in preparation mode. How much of that was necessary, will they pay off, and when can I finally catch a break, I don’t know” “Ah well, good luck with the interviews. I think you’re perfect for the job.” “Thanks” “Overcomplicating, overpreparing, always researching. Yep, sounds…
So. As part of my latest attempt in untangling this writing paralysis, last Tuesday I promised my therapist to publish two posts to Substack by the end of today. I had one full week but only started dusting off my writing environment on Saturday. Tinkered with some drafts, captured new ideas, but unable to fully…
Hello friend, I’m reporting back 7 weeks into this mini retirement and I just want to say that I finally begun to feel more rested. I resigned mid May, interestingly one year since I published the “I can retire but I don’t” post. I survived the excruciating 2.5 months of extended notice period till the…
being queer has been natural and effortless for me as my sex, gender identity, and gender expression are conveniently aligned. this also means it’s easy for me to not “do” much queer. I’ve gotten away with doing the bare minimum. sometimes bare minimum is good enough but I know I can afford to make more…
haha seems like I’m starting blogging again… just published http://proses.id/unhurried-conversations/ taking it slow writing really does recharge me. I’ve forgotten how healing it is. I mean proper writing. not just jotting things down (which I still do everyday, to empty my head, and just adds to backlog of unprocessed drafts). why not just tweet these…
I thought I have cracked the code to having a good day. I’ve been tracking my time and activities on spreadsheets since Dec 2018. I know the hours I sleep, the things I eat, my mental clarity, my physical fitness, what I consumed that day, what I produced aka achieved that day (non work related),…
why do I still feel tired, no bandwidth and motivation to do stuff? but still able to “go pro”, show up, and do my day job — killing it as well. but I’m just left with no energy or interest to do the other non-work stuff like writing and side hustles. even family tim, and…
(September 2019 at Ladies View, Ring of Kerry, Ireland) Summary of points in this post: Life is great right now but I feel guilty for feeling content. Questioned the idea of comfort zone. Are we really ever comfortable? Disillusioned: apparently I don’t enjoy the things I thought I’d love to do. I don’t want to…