Permission

i don’t need to be brief. i don’t need to be coherent. i dont need to be heard/read/understood i don’t need to be comprehensive, correct / valid forever no need to fit into any template, mine or others out of the vast “catalogue” out there. you have my full permission to sleep, eat, read, listen…

Invisible mess

First let me share 4 links and 1 story. Was reading this interview with Aly Raisman. https://www.newyorker.com/culture/the-new-yorker-interview/aly-raisman-still-wants-answers Q: We’ve seen so many turnovers in leadership. Is it possible for USA Gymnastics to change, or will reforming the culture of the sport require a much broader overhaul of the governing body? A: When I think about…

This is temporary. Keep Walking

was in a weird headspace and feeling lethargic. like being mentally and physically constipated and bloated and overall scattered. took some time off social media. still checking in every once in a while, but not in a very active manner. mentally one mindset I want to remember to hold more: This is temporary the restlesness,…

include the subconscious into the radar

if (you are very puzzled or frustrated why) you can’t (do / maintain something) and you’ve really tried, perhaps it’s your body not your mind that’s blocking it’s like no matter what you do or say or think you can’t override it, you keep on looping in the same cycle, despite catching yourself being very…

Changes

Whatever you have right now, you won’t have forever. Whatever you have right now, you didn’t have before. _ Knowing that things will change won’t help keeping it from changing. But knowing you can influence the direction, magnitude, and pace of the change will help to some extent. Sometimes it takes a while to receive…

Why dying is the way to live wisely

One of the things I’m struggling most with is this concept of legacy. I’m a planner. Before this diagnosis I’d been thinking of my 1st 35 years — aside from being a ton of fun and travel — as preparation. I felt like I was building a platform (savings, networks, skills, experience) that I could then use in my…

On Eating

Principles to simplify my decision making around eating. never eat when you are not hungry never eat when you are stressed never eat when you are bored never eat when you are anxious food != reward find other reward don’t eat whenever you are hungry protein > fat > carbs > sugar drink water, hydrate yourself…

I am being a donkey

I find myself drowning in responsibilities and ideas lately. A large portion of it is not caused by external force. Just deliberately and consciously overcommitting and being overambitious. I also notice that I am going in circles. Trying to move any atomic piece of different action plans for 5 projects does not pay off yet.…