Nothing matters, really.
All those deadlines. All those plans. Goals, wishes, worries, what ifs.
Most of them don’t matter in the grand scheme of things. They keep on changing.
Remember what you were obsessed about last year? Remember what was so important to you this time last month? All imaginary and fleeting.
You are not wasting your time. You are not missing out on anything. Stop worrying so much.
You’re doing okay. You will be fine no matter what. You will make up stories and life goes on.
You have nowhere else you need to be. You have nothing else you need to be doing.
No one even remembers or notice. No one cares.
Do it for you. Don’t do it for anyone but you. Do it because you want to. Say no. Say yes. Whatever.
Help them, care about them, give yourself to them. But do it because you want to. Because it’s who you want to be.
Everyone wants the same thing as you do. We want to be seen, we want to have fun. Be secure. Laugh. Feels appreciated. Hit our goals. Feel desired. We want to keep our narratives. We are curious. We want to know about other people and we want to be heard.
Nothing in life is complicated. Everyone is just trying their best to get what they think they (should) want.
You are only here for a while. During this time you have power, you have impact. But don’t flatter yourself. You can be something but you cannot be everything. But you get to decide what that something is.
No one can tell you what is right or wrong but you. No one knows what they’re doing. We are all living in our own little story.
So, do your thing. Know your game.
// raw late-night drowsy rant.