I didn’t expect snapping out of an eating disorder to be this easy. It has been 14 days since I started giving myself permission to eat more and intentionally increase my level of body fat. I am doing it to recover from amenorrhea. What I have lost so far: guilt, stress, self judgement appetite /…
Category: Health
Why do we hate fat? Why do we run around trying to lose fat? How much fat is OK? I realised I never challenged the idea of vilifying body fat. I see the obsession we have with losing weight and losing fat but I never consciously processed it. It’s just one of those “facts”. A…
If I can summarise the one skill I need to focus on training now, it boils down to this: go back to listening to my body. I am aware that my body signal is currently weak, out of whack, and could be misleading. It will take a while for it to get back into groove.…
The second mindset shift happened the last week of February 2020. Thanks to my attempt to cut down the time I spend on Twitter and Instagram, during that time I started developing attachment to Youtube. Excellent isn’t it? I was facing a decision that relies on whether or not I want to get married and…
I seeked out the cause of amenorrhea. How did this happen? What did I do wrong? undereating overexercising high stress All of which impacts the hormone, and when imbalance happens, your body tries to protect yourself. If it thinks you’re not safe, then it’s definitely not safe to grow a baby. To be fair, I…
I noticed my period stopped around March or May 2017 but I decided to ignore it because it’s convenient. I need to travel for 2 months abroad so I will take care of it once I am back. All cool. I did start reading and researching about what caused it. Learned about the term for…
This is the first time I am going to talk about this publicly. I will split this into a series of post so it doesn’t read too long — addressing points about binge eating, obsession with exercise, obsession with food, recovering from amenorrhea, what I learned from the battle, and the magnitude of body image issue in society.
No one realizes how beautiful it is to travel until he comes home and rests his head on his old, familiar pillow. — Lin Yutang Lying on bed this morning, resisted reaching for my phone. Letting my mind wander instead. Started thinking. Waking up at home vs waking up when travelling. I don’t know about…
The most standard, basic, and laziest answer to “what do you want in life” is “I want to be happy”. Arguably the question itself is a bad question. But anyway. So, you want to be happy. What does that even mean? Do you know? When we say we want to be happy, what we probably think: 1.…
I am part of a community called Introvert Network Asia (Indonesia chapter) and recently was asked to do a talk in one of the get-together. I think this is quite a heck lot of information to deliver and absorb without any text to go back to, so I decided to publish the outline here. When the…