ok let’s see, what are actually frustrating me now
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too little time to actually sit down and finish a discussion, understand, decide, execute properly, develop a mature plan
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things not moving fast enough, needing approval, get people on the same page
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but also moving too fast at the same time, each week passed so quickly. time for another deadline and progress report.
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managing the reactive work, changing priorities, growing backlogs, half-done projects sitting to rot
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putting together, making sense of, taming, organising, trying to progress and present all these good plans, good ideas, and good intentions. with no result to show yet.
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no good outlet to flow/output/pour/channel the good work. constipated.
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forced into too many meetings, where I don’t do my best work. collaborative real time brainstorming, half baked thoughts, points not getting across properly.
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ran out of working slot loans that I can’t make up just yet
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tired, exhausted, impatient, overwhelmed, not doing my best work, just a little portion that is actually my genius zone.
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trying to contribute to the other initiatives, putting the pieces together, but sometimes feeling lost, missing the context, or disagree with the direction — but can’t articulate it well with the tired brain, without thinking it through, letting it simmer.
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things I did prep, wasn’t used / properly communicated in the end.
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feeling like I don’t have enough to seize and maximise the opportunity to flex all the good half-baked work I have done
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impatience and insecurity
